An Update…
I actually got an apology! I don’t know what happened, but Sunday Stuart’s son was here. At one point I went out to fill the car with gas, and when I came back Stuart said he was sorry. All I could think was, “Great… what did you do now?” But that night when we went to sleep he apologized again… and I said that that’s all fine and good, but unless he understands why I was upset (and by Sunday something else had happened that I won’t share on here) it doesn’t really do much. But he listed off most of the things he did wrong… I was impressed.
He didn’t know what else had happened, but I didn’t expect him to. So he let me explain what was going on. Finally.
A friend asked me one day if the relationship is worth it, what with how insensitive Stuart can be. And it is…. I realize I rant about him a lot, but really it’s a way to let me get it all out. I would prefer to go off on my blog or to a friend than to yell at him, ’cause I don’t like doing that. I like to rationally talk things out. And he’s really good about listening…. He never gets the attitude that I’m always mad so why should he try or anything. I’m a fairly patient and fair person so when he pushes me that far… he wants to know what he did. And he really does work on doing better, it’s just going to take a lot more time.
He needs to work on the silent treatment though, ’cause I’m sick of getting it. He knows that too ’cause that was one of the first things he mentioned in his list of apologies. Gotta get him making some decisions too… I don’t understand why everything comes down to me. :\
Physically I’m doing… I dunno how I’m doing. The wisdom teeth never hurt too bad, the pills were more brutal than anything. But when the pain killers ran out I did start getting this pressure in my jaw that is really uncomfortable, but I imagine that’ll go away soon. Worse though, is my neck, shoulders and back feel completely bruised. Like my whole body always feels bruised but this is really sensitive. Stuart blew on my back the other night and it hurt! And laying on a pillow or anything hurts… basically having something touch my neck and back means pain, and how do you sleep without something there. Even flat on a mattress that’s touching!
So I’m not getting much sleep. And yesterday I was exhausted. I’ve never felt like that before. I got a little sleep last night but I was still up every couple hours… I really hate this!
Another week and I go back to the doctor, hopefully this time they can do something that works!
